email visitation

There are too many things I want to tell you: little bits of sentences float around in my head, like: if you tell me exactly what you meant by "unresolved feelings", i could tell you if you were being "presumptious". funny - the fact that you misspelled a word made me sad that i couldn't point it out to you and smile about it.
(but you weren't. you weren't. of course you knew.)
i wish i knew exactly what i was feeling the most. anger? resentment? des- why, what is the noun for despise?
apparently it is "despisal". very ugly. i don't like it.