awful scary coincidences

sure and coincidences can be amusing, oh yes. that's when they're happy coincidences that have to do with girls named johnnie but what of the other coincidences, eh? the ones where you spend an entire morning unable to pray because you are prey (i know, i know, it's almost as good as the virtual vicinity!) to all sorts of maudlin fancies and you cannot cannot cannot get through more than a single minute without wanting to fall off comething very very tall and then excuse me here is a surprise for you and did you know when you were thinking this in the morning that the evening would bring a surprise like this? i thought not.

i'm very very very tired because i have slept two hours in two days and I have work to do the whole of tonight but i am not dead, and i am not suicidal and i am not likely to be either very soon barring unsightly accidents.

*sigh*

refuse to be refuse to be refuse to be hopeful about anything.